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[Jul. 12th, 2006|01:58 pm] |
here's an update:
i.hate.my.life.
im miserable, sleep-deprived, overworked, underpaid, stressed out, depressed, lonely, sad, n furious at life.
everytime one problem seems to go away (or get a lil less traumatic) another one pops up, immediatly. good game life.
so, no i will not call u back. no im not going to come visit u. no i dont wanna go hang out and do basically ANYTHING other than getting fucking high w/my gt whenever i have 1/2 a second free in my life.
if u cant deal w/that, stop being friends w/me cus u OBVIOUSLY dont fuckin care if im happy or (as in this case) NOT.
bye. |
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| Maybe this year will be better than the last... |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|12:22 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dave Chappelle singing "Different Strokes" | ] |
I confess that in 2005 I ...
(x) stayed single the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
(x) made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) fell in love
( ) fell in love with an idiot
(x) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
( ) had a good relationship with someone
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
(x) kissed someone of the same sex
( ) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under miseltoe
WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
( ) got a pay raise
(x) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
( ) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
(x) cut class
(x) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
( ) gave teachers a reason to teach
(x) proved yourself an idiot
( ) embaressed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got a lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
( ) got sent to the office
OTHER
( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went to camp
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) flirted shamelessly
(x) visited a foreign country
(x) visted a different state
( ) cooked a disasterous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
(x) dyed your hair
( ) came close to losing your life
( ) someone close to you died
(x) went to a party
(x) drank alcohol
(x) drank alcohol underage
(x) did drug(s) 
(x) got drunk
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
( ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(x) saw your favorite band/artist live
(x) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
( ) Enjoyed this year over all
it hasn't even sunk in that it's 2006 yet. or maybe it never will, time seems to affect me differently the older i get. idk, im rambling.
but, 2006 will b better than the last few yrs, i have a good feeling
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| You said that I changed, well maybe I did. Even if I've changed...what's wrong with it? |
[Dec. 16th, 2005|01:18 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "That's All" - Michael Buble | ] |
i SHOULD'VE updated on the 10th, but u cant really expect that much from me
sooooo, besides this sheisty semester coming to an end, the only real update hurr is the fact that it's been a year now, a YEAR
....pure crazyness.
n honestly, a year later....i could be worse. so good for me.
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| marijuana for president |
[Sep. 5th, 2005|05:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | anticipation (of being high) | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Footprints" - Tok | ] |
(in reference to my life being the equivalent of a piece of burnt toast)
ajjlewer (2:20:03 PM): Scrape off the burnt bits and face the world!! luv x3 Dad
...now THAT'S a life motto if i ever heard 1
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 31st, 2005|12:45 am] |
i dont have much 2 say right now, i dont really feel like writing about rush or school or my rickety old house, bcuz what does all that shit really matter anyway?
...i just wish things were different i guess.
The funny thing is, I've got people so convinced that I'm ok...I've almost convinced myself. |
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| I wish I had air conditioning in my house... |
[Aug. 13th, 2005|10:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "La Tortura" - Shakira | ] |
So, since I'm not high right now, I figured I'd say a few things that I feel need to be said.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Summer's almost over....wow. 3 months used to be like a lifetime,
n now it just goes by like a few days. Time goes by faster,
things change faster, nothing really ever stays the same anymore.
That's a given though, I guess, because that is what life is all
about. I guess I just never realized how fast it all happens.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I feel an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach when I think about
going back to Oneonta. This will be the second time I hafta go
back there without a best friend n start all over again. To some
people, that may not seem like such a big deal, but im not like I used
to be in high school; I dont feel the need to have 7 or 8 "best
friends". I like having one person who I know I can always count
on to go eat with, n have chill nights with, n go run errands with,
without having to worry about it.
The thing is, sometimes you can be surrounded by so many people, n still just feel utterly alone.
I already feel alone just thinking about the upcoming year.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I guess in the end, you just pretty much always end up alone.
There will always be people coming in and out of your life, sometimes
they stay forever, but at the same time the only person (in reality)
that you can always count on to ALWAYS be there....is yourself.
Maybe that's what life is all about; learning how to be alone.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I've been stalking incoming freshman girls who I DONT KNOW on facebook
for my sorority. Not by choice, mind you. But, because I'm
now being forced to do things like that. I guess it's a preview
of whats to come this year (whoopee). If any of you who read this
ever see a post in the upcoming months where I'm describing things like
stalking girls with EXCITEMENT.....come to Oneonta, into my house, and
shoot me....in the head. K thanx.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Alright. I guess that's pretty much all I hafta say. I hope
things are going well with everyone else. I miss those of you who
I havent talked to in a while, but I totally read your LJ's just to
keep myself updated and entertained : )
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ps - It's 10:43 right now, I got home from work 31 minutes ago, and I have work at 8am tomorrow. Jealous?
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| Welcome back to the late late show... |
[Jul. 9th, 2005|12:58 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Random TV in the background | ] |
My thoughts are slightly scattered...so bear with me.
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I haven't updated in a while, n im bored, so i figured i would.
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I've been slaving away at the A&P more than usual. It's been
a rough-ass week since the night front-end manager is on vacation, so
i'm her while she's gone. It sucks. But my last day doing it is tomorrow, so I'm looking forward to that.
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Smoking....yeah. Self-explanatory. Makes me happy, nuff said.
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Vaca w/Justy in 8 days....thats
pure insanity. My summer vaca's always bug me out bcus they make
me realize that an entire year of my life has gone by since the last
time I went on vaca. That's absolutely insane.
...The past year sucked, btw.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
But it's still the middle of summer,
so that's pretty sweet. I've been receiving random phone calls
from ppl i havent seen/spoken to in a while. It's been strange, I
don't feel the need to go into detail. That's about it I guess.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Smoking...A&P...Vaca w/Justy...Random updates...
Yep, that's about covers it.
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 21st, 2005|12:24 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exanimate | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bananaphone | ] |
shiiiiiiit mang
ps...wtf is exanimate?
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| We're Fresh Obsessed!! |
[Jun. 4th, 2005|06:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Helena" - My Chemical Romance | ] |
I wish I had more interesting things to write, but my brain is already
delving back into it's "brain stall mode" so I'm just gonna give
a quickie little entry. I'm great like that.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Summer...brilliant.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Back to work @ the A&P.
I find myself wondering EVERY YEAR why it is that I keep going back to
this place, yet I always do. Strange hypnotic A&P powers....I
will figure you out one day. It does make me chuckle though that
I already have the power and respect that I left with, I enjoy seeing
fear on people's faces. That's right bitches, I am the big boss
lady.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I've missed sunshine and blue skies.
You don't really get too much of that upstate, and when it does happen,
you can't even really enjoy it that much. So I'm enjoying the
happy climate of home. There was crazyass pollen today, it looks
like there's an inch of snow on the ground. I feel a mild amount
of post-traumatic war syndrome (or something along those lines).
The thought of snow gives me great feelings of anxiety....damn you
oneonta.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm back in my green cloud
now, as it should be. Although I miss being able to form coherent
sentences at a fast pace, and process other people's sentences at a
fast pace, I do not miss the feelings of emptyness and sadness
which are now, thank god, no longer a part of my life.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm looking forward to vaca w/Justy
in a month or so. Should be some good ass times. I heart
your passport pic babe....sexy bastard. You can be my angry
jailbait any day of the week.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Alas, I have no more to write...
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